I've opened up with you guys many times before but not to the extent that I am going to tonight....or this morning. Haha.
The past two weeks have been a crazy roller coaster for me. I have gone through ups and downs to back up to back down to back up again. I know that this high place I am at now in life will eventually drop down to a low again and I am so scared for that to happen. Usually when I am low I get very depressed and just feel like doing absolutely nothing. Which brings me to another question.
"Is happiness a feeling or a choice?"
I have debated with many of my friends and even my family members over the years that I TRULY believe that you can choose to be happy or choose to be sad, upset, mad, etc. I feel this way because when I am going through struggles in my life and all of a sudden something really good happens to me I am happy again. It's amazing how one single situation can change a perspective for better or for worse.
I think the one thing that I need to work on is to find that happiness that I have had sooo many times before and channel it. I know too that a lot of the trials that have came into my life were at the times my walk with God had become almost non-existent.
Now, I am not going to sit here and preach about how you need to convert and the whole schpeel, but I do ask that you respect my beliefs and do not look down on me or judge me. I know everyone has different views, thoughts, religions, theories, and morals but I ask that you will respect mine just as I will respect yours.
Anyways, the time that I am unhappy the most is when I walk away from my God, put other worldly things in front of our relationship, and basically just say, "I can do this on my own." I then realize that I am walking away from someone that is soo powerful and has changed my life. It's when I go back and find that happiness that things start to look up for me.
I wish I could pour out my whole heart to you guys right now, but I know that I am not ready to do that, and I think if I did you would be reading for ages. What I want to know is where does your happiness come from and do you believe it's a feeling or a choice.
Until next time.
XOXO, CiCi <3
1 comments:
I believe happiness is both a feeling and a choice :P I know I know... but really I think your overall feeling of happiness and attitude are a choice but sometimes you just feel happy! Maybe that sounds dumb but overall I think you have more of a chance to genuienly feel happy when you are choosing to be in a happy state! Phew that was a little deep sorry :P
I also agree life is much harder when our relationship with our Heavenly Father is weak. He is there for us and wants us to be happy, having that knowledge and striving to better my relationship with Him daily is what keeps me going sometimes :)
Luv you! This too shall pass! :D
HUGS!!!
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